firstly,i would like to thanks meeza for changing the blog skin.thank you meeza.!
alrighties.exams are really really near and puasa is tis sunday.cant believe it.very fast seyy.and my mr lollipop is leaving soon.another 13 more days lyk tat lahh..i'll seriouslyy miss hiim alot.i can cry sia lyk this.

YESTERDAY NIGHT.

I was crying non stop.
my mind was having a flashback.
the day when my grandmother passed away.

i could still remember..

it was 1st october 2003.
it was suppose to be a happy,joyful day for us.but then..

i was asleep on that day when my cousin,emma,woke me up.
she rold me that our grandmother had just passed away.i cant believe it at first coz i dont want to and i will not believe her.

when i take a look at the master bedroom..there.i saw her.lying peacefully on the bed.covering with a kain.i cant believe that it's my grandmother.after i saw her body,i went straight back to the bedroom where i slept.i was crying and crying non stop.but,i need to stay strong.my family members who were there at that time were cleaning the living room.my mum called our relatives and the doctor.

after i took my shower and changed and stuff..me,anis and emma went outside the house and we told wanderful stories about our grandmother.and we cried together.at about 11am+..the funeral begun.i had to witnessed it.my family had to kiss her forehead.and it's the last time ever i saw her beautiful face..i had to held back my tears when i kissed her.after i kissed her..i ran to the bedroom and i cried.i let go all of my tears.i let it all go..me and fitri cried the most..my other grandmother had to calm me and fitri down.but i cant..i'll miss her voice,her touch,her kiss,her advices..her huggs,her protection towards us..i miss her..i'm crying while i'm writing this..

the last gift that she had gave me is a gold bracelet..it was for my 11th birthday..after she gave it to me..she hugged me.and i cried.it's like..i was thinking what am i going to do without her..and now..she's totally gone.i cant believe that she's gone from my life..but i will still remember her till the day i die.i'm missing her ryt now..all i could ever talk ablout was her.my grandmother.my beloved grandmothere who took care of me since i was a baby.i miss her sooo soo much. my nenek wearing purple who passed away.
i miss her soo much ryt now.i miss her voice..i feel that as if she was here with us..sitting or lying at couch..sitting at the kitchen table..admiring the fishes..i love her soo much.wish she were here to look at my report book..and ask how am i doing in school and stuff..i also wish that i could say how sorry i am towards her..but it was just to late.it's over.i cant say all of that anymore.