finished english exam and u noe what?..it's soo easyy.seriouslyy.
and yesterday,i flunked my home econ presentation.i stutter alot.i dunt even know what to do or what to say cos i dont have any script with me.and..mine is the worst!.yahh.hate it!!

dont cry to me
if you love me
you would be here with me
you want me
come find me
make up your mind

the lyrics are meaningful..for me lahh.
this few days,i'm really getting sleepy..in school and at home.
i dont know what's with me..but i like BARNEY.

barney is just soo cute and chubby.!!barney is sooo hot lahh..
cant stand looking at hiim..me and jummy cant resist of him smiling away...goshh..
people..i'm going to admit that i cant stop thinking bout lollipop.

kk.gotta go..
continue tommorow..

tata

today,i'm was blushing and smiling and sooo happy sey.And just now mrs.heikel blanja us PIZZA.yeah.PIZZA.nice sia..
why the hell am i so goddamn happy?.
-that's because i got to smile at lollipop!.and i get a chance to talked to him at the phone and face to face and also watch him train.aww..so cute larh..

hidayah was like telling lollipop this,"eh,maggi loves you soooo much!"
he was like,"i know."

and i keep beating jumamosie and sakinah coz i saw lollipop.just for that.ehk.seriously lahh people..i really have a crush on him.ohh..and by the way..i'm not gonna write about my practical exam coz it's such a disaster.I WANT A RETEST.that's all i request for alwites.

today is gonna be the last day we can eat in class..so,just now..i brought ruffles sour cream and onion.very nice seyy..fazlina brought crontos.hahah..we ate during english time..sempat kan?..hawhaw..chat with my favourite people..love them alot seyy..

ohh..fazlina..you can take ur andy lahh..he's all yours..k?happy?..mine is lollipop..heheh..

about 10 more days.they'll be sitting for their N level seyy..i'm like counting down.cant believe that.seriouslyy.
now.next friday is our english paper.i'm really nervous.REALLY REALLY NERVOUS.seriouslyy lahh..

chatting with jummy,aziz,mikey,yazid n rahman.the best and favourite people to chat with.

firstly,i would like to thanks meeza for changing the blog skin.thank you meeza.!
alrighties.exams are really really near and puasa is tis sunday.cant believe it.very fast seyy.and my mr lollipop is leaving soon.another 13 more days lyk tat lahh..i'll seriouslyy miss hiim alot.i can cry sia lyk this.

YESTERDAY NIGHT.

I was crying non stop.
my mind was having a flashback.
the day when my grandmother passed away.

i could still remember..

it was 1st october 2003.
it was suppose to be a happy,joyful day for us.but then..

i was asleep on that day when my cousin,emma,woke me up.
she rold me that our grandmother had just passed away.i cant believe it at first coz i dont want to and i will not believe her.

when i take a look at the master bedroom..there.i saw her.lying peacefully on the bed.covering with a kain.i cant believe that it's my grandmother.after i saw her body,i went straight back to the bedroom where i slept.i was crying and crying non stop.but,i need to stay strong.my family members who were there at that time were cleaning the living room.my mum called our relatives and the doctor.

after i took my shower and changed and stuff..me,anis and emma went outside the house and we told wanderful stories about our grandmother.and we cried together.at about 11am+..the funeral begun.i had to witnessed it.my family had to kiss her forehead.and it's the last time ever i saw her beautiful face..i had to held back my tears when i kissed her.after i kissed her..i ran to the bedroom and i cried.i let go all of my tears.i let it all go..me and fitri cried the most..my other grandmother had to calm me and fitri down.but i cant..i'll miss her voice,her touch,her kiss,her advices..her huggs,her protection towards us..i miss her..i'm crying while i'm writing this..

the last gift that she had gave me is a gold bracelet..it was for my 11th birthday..after she gave it to me..she hugged me.and i cried.it's like..i was thinking what am i going to do without her..and now..she's totally gone.i cant believe that she's gone from my life..but i will still remember her till the day i die.i'm missing her ryt now..all i could ever talk ablout was her.my grandmother.my beloved grandmothere who took care of me since i was a baby.i miss her sooo soo much. my nenek wearing purple who passed away.
i miss her soo much ryt now.i miss her voice..i feel that as if she was here with us..sitting or lying at couch..sitting at the kitchen table..admiring the fishes..i love her soo much.wish she were here to look at my report book..and ask how am i doing in school and stuff..i also wish that i could say how sorry i am towards her..but it was just to late.it's over.i cant say all of that anymore.

having a fight with pineapple AGAIN.

cant believe it.seriously.i cant believe it.

him: i cabar u dngr lagu jiwang time tngh emo.nnt gerenty u nanges.

me: done that.tuu pun tngh teringat psl seseorg..

him: SAPER?!

me: ader argh..

him: ohh..so,u two time me isit?!

me: takk.i didnt sia..

him: jgn nk bedek..

me: ya allah..org tak bedek..

him: dulu syamir pnh ckp yg u pnh two time dier..

me: biler??

him: time last year..

me: no i didnt.

him: jgn nk bedek ahh..own up je lahh..

me: buat per nk own up wen i didnt..buang mase je..

him: if i found out..i'll smack u and tat guy skali..

me: mcm brani gitu..

him: ehk.saper ckp yg i tak brani?!

me: FINE!! U TAK PERCAYE I SUDAH!! IT'S UP TO U IF U WANT TO BELIEVE ME OR NOT!!

and it went on and on..
i'm sooo fed up wif hiim.!i felt like breaking up wif hiim already..

BUT.
whenever i chat wif mr.lollipop,i felt soo hapie.he cool me down..just love him fer tat.i'm gonna miss him..wish i cud noe him b4..left 20+ days till their exams..and..WHOOSH.they're gone.just like that.leaving us..
i love mr.lollipop lahh..
later,no one will call me maggi,or buy fer me lollipop..
i felt like crying wen they're about to leave this school..
seriouslyy..i love hiim.*sobbingg :'(

to my one and only mr.lollipop:

i'll always love you alot.thanks for being my lollipop supplier.hahah.i'll seriouslyy miss you.if u're free frm wgs..dun forget me tau..rmbr me,MAGGI.jgn luper visit nie skolah kaes?..well,love u lots.=)

saturday:
- didnt go to the kenduri coz i'm sick.
- doing nothing at home and it sux coz it's sooooo damn bored.

sunday:
- cant belive tat my aunt is alredy engaged.with?an architect.
- gotta wear baju kurung.[my mum asked us to wear it.she wants us to be elegant.]
- chat with my lollipop supplier.[so cute lahh him..he wants to give me lollipop so,i will love him alot.but then,i love him already lahh.my lollipop supplier per..XD]
- my aunt's 6-years-old son kept poking me.[painful tau.but he enjoy the entertainment.]

monday:
- went to the library.saw alot of woodgrovers there.
- saw this scarf.it's black & a flower at the top.jummy try it and she looks like a teenage prostitute.[i want that hairband lah jummy.!it looks sooo cute!!can be use to tie hair too per..]
- and..it goes on and on..[mls nak type argh...]

tuesday:
- which is today.didnt go out.
- woke p at around 9+am.
- there's a 'suprise block cleaning' going on.
- just now,in the morning,rina opens dil to pagal hai,bichhoo,duplicate..etc..my mom wants to watch..
- we watched the ricky martin's concert.
- we shared stories bout wat hindi songs me,anis,aishah & aidah love to dance with.
- i also help to 'paint' the pineapple tart's top.tiring.seriously.
- chat with jummy,ajmaeen,azal & saiful.saiful looks sooooo cute wen he was a baby.!!

i'm touched.seriously.aizat told me that my old best friends do still remember me.aww..i love them for that..*sobbing
i regret for not following aizat to PARK VIEW PRI SCH.

i used to have a crush on this guy,muhaimin,when i was in kindergarten.One thing is that,HE REMEMBER WHO I AM.i miss my oldest best friend ever,that is,fifi.i use to pinch her cheeks.she's like tweety bird.aizat told me that she would like to meet me one day.it seems that all of them who knew me would like to meet me one day.i really2 miss them alot.especially fifi,muhaimin,ibrahim & sofia.i knew them since kindergarten.we use to talk and get into trouble together..seriously,i REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS THEM!!!*sobbing.

How nice of them to remember me still.that touched my heart alot.some of them even bought along their kindergarten & primary one photos.muhaimin is expecting for a 100% attandance from the kindergarten photo,but i failed to turn up and i regret.can't believe it.i feel like killing aizat because he didnt even take down all their numbers.ASS ISNT IT?!
cant belive that they're planning to sabo me next year.it's going to be triple.

eh.seriously larh..i love all of them all.they are such good friends of mine.i miss fifi alot.she's my best friends since we're small.my mum is her mum's friend and my dad is her dad's friend.and they're such a good friends.
i feel like crying for not following aizat and irwan yesterday!! i wanna meet my old pals..i love them lots.[i also love my present friends now okaes..!]
and..i cant belive that aizat saw my K2 & primary 1 photo.it's sooo embarrassing.!! cant believe it.muhaimin showed it to him.fifi,ibrahim,sofia,muhaimin and the others whom i've forgetten,want's my number and they want to meet me.

it's really touching coz most of them knew me and i've forgotten bout them.seriously,i feel like crying ryt now..*sobbing